Okay... guess what? I like sex. Matter of fact, I fuckin love it.
BUT... certain criteria must be met before I endulge in the act. After being with someone for six years who eventually became very selfish in bed, sex was no longer fun to me. He just wanted to bust a nut, wether I did or not. I gave up on him and I gave up on sex... gladly. For a while I didn't even miss it at all. I was good. Yeah, notice I said "for a while" lol. Eventually the urge is going to come along. But I wouldn't give in, I wanted it to be different this time around. I set the rule for myself that my pussy (excuse me, I'm vulgar) and my brain had to agree with eachother. I wasn't going to use anyone for my gratification nor was I going to let anyone use me for theirs. I wanted to feel wanted. I needed to feel needed. And I wanted to feel the same towards that person as well. Best believe in the meantime, my lil toy held me down ;) I wasn't about to completely cheat myself lol.
Well after 7 months of a "drought" I finally found what I needed. And almost 3 years later, still have it. Oh it's not all rainbows and sunshine, trust me I will get into that another time. But I was amazed to discover how much passion I could feel for another person. I realized that what I was doing before was just... sex. And what I'm doing now is like... magic. Because there is such a connection outiside of sex and before sex, that when we connect physically... halleluiah, amen. Finally! Someone who wants to please me, not just theirself. And that makes me willing to do the same for him. It's almost like an exchange of energy that I can't quite put into words. I've never felt like "oh this muthafucka just wanna bust a nut and go to sleep." No, this muthafucka don't wanna go to sleep until I bust a nut... or two or three lol.
I'm just giving some background because I will probably talk about sex alot and I don't want it coming off as I'm out here just freakin off all willy nilly lol. I can't even do that, but I don't knock it either. Different strokes for different folks. I judge no one. Okay well let's be honest, if you fuckin 5 different men a week, you're a hoe. And that's not passing judgment, that's just stating a fact lol. I think all women deserve good sex. I'm gonna make The 10 Sex Commandments (in due time) and my First Commandment is: Thy Pussy and Brain Shall Be in Agreement. Less heartache will come from that.
Can I get a AMEN!
2 comments:
Oh shizzle.
I'm looking forward to the commandments!
I had someone about a year and a half ago who I didnt give into for a while, and he wasnt even trying. But when we DID? Woo lawd.
There is nothing like good sex with a man who your 'brain' is completely into.
Keep em' commin mama!
HELLS yeah.
P.S. The Commandments will be on n poppin very shortly so be on the lookout lol.
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